Don't Fight It...

When you're feeling something, feel it.
Don't run away from it...
'Numbing the pain for a while will only make it worse when you finally feel it.' -Dumbledore  :D

Everyone feels pain...a bad exam day, a break-up, a family member being ill, a pet dying, a friend moving away. And the love that we feel for people makes our lives AMAZING until they're removed from our lives. Don't cry because they're gone, smile because they were there.

It's in human nature to fight against things that we don't understand. We cannot go outside at night without a torch because we FIGHT against the dark. From space, you can see all of the lights in the cities in the nighttime. So even space can see how afraid we have become.

We need to STOP FIGHTING THINGS.
Go out in the rain without a raincoat.
On a cold day, open all the windows.
Have dessert first.
Wear your shoes on the wrong feet.
Live like you are UNAFRAID...
Sing out loud that you love the earth but not running away from your emotions. Feel them, cry, shout. When it's over...live your life like you did before. You're not forgetting or replacing people or things...you're just helping yourself to live the best life that you can. You're honoring the things that have passed :D

IRELAND :D

So.

On Facebook earlier this year...on the list of people 'I May Know...' there was a picture of this chick with black ponytails, a lip piercing and a shirt that said 'Five Hundred Dollar Smut.'

I friend requested her.

And.

She accepted.

This was Ireland Kraft.

She is amazing.

If I had never met her. I would have been depressed most of this WHOLE YEAR.

>>FACTS ABOUT IRELAND...

{She flaps her arms and squeals when she's happy}

{She has THEEEE cutest smile EVER}

{She has planked before}

{She is really a boy. Because, you know}

{She LOVES Sundrop}

{Earlier this year she got THE most SORE-looking sunburn EVER}

{She is buds to, like, EVERYONE that knows her}

{She ADORES BOTDF}

{She cuts her hair all the time}

{She has made me YOUTUBE videos}

{She has theee most BOSS editing skills}

{She is SO SWEET and MAKES MY DAY almost EVERY DAY}

{She lives in America}

{She is buds with Hannah Blacker, Morgan Chiverella and Haley}

{She paints her face like a kitty}

{She pierced her own lip....BRAVE}

{She is the WHACKIEST person ever}

{Oh yes....SHE IS A COMPLETE STUNNER. She is INSANELY pretty. She has AMAZING eyes and the most BEAUTIFUL face. Even with whiskers <3}

So, I'm sure that you can tell that I LOVE Ireland EXTREME amounts and I WISH we were sisters <3

Well, we are.

LEGITLY <3

I LOVE YOU IRELAND <3 <3

All It Takes...

CHOOSE TO BE :D

You Are The One Responsible For Your Own Happiness :)

Florence Welch sings an amazing song, 'Shake It Out' {Florence & the Machine}and some of the lyrics are:

"And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off

I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart
Cause I like to keep my issues strong
It's always darkest before the dawn "

Albus Dumbledore {Harry Potter, J.K Rowling} said:

"Happiness can be found in the darkest of time
If only we remember to turn on the light."

This makes me realise....that each and every single person is responsible for their own happiness. Other people can influence how we feel at any given time...but if we chose not to let it bother us, we can stat happy despite what happens.

We need to remember that dwelling in the past and focusing on things that are depressing or uninspiring will bring us down.

SMILE and it will lift you and everyone around you. :D

FRIENDS :D

I only realised in the past few days how much my friends MAKE MY LIFE...and without them howlost-like i would be. They support, love and help me through ANYTHING :D

SIMONE :D

I was friends with her when we were in nappies...but she moved Durban then to Port Elizabeth and only came back when we were twelve. The earliest memory of us I have is her burping in my face. Lovely.
But after sleepovers, dances, parties, break-ups, breaktimes, shopping trips, bowling, adventure golf, trawling brightwater in the middle of the night..I don't think that I could wish for a better friend. I am a HUNDRED percent sure that we will still be friends in thirty years time!
She has an amazing sense of humour and fun and with her jokes, smiles and premature insightful wisdom, i manage to get through difficult things. <3

ASHLEIGH <3
I only met Ashleigh last year in grade eight...but we have such a strong friendship i feel like I've known her for ten years instead of two :D She brightens my day with her brutal honesty and sense of humour. There is never a dull moment with her. She is a STUNNER and I am slightly embarassed to be in pictures with her because of this :D
We made technology dresses together, trawled the Harry Potter cinema (where I lost our tickets) went to Potted Sports, assemblies, break-times, the rugby, everything. I cannot live without her amazing smile and support :)

SHANNON :D
We met when we were eleven and took an instant dislike to eachother. Through Simone, we bonded until we became almost inseperable last year. Since then, we've grown apart quite a bit, but her CRAZY personality and ability to make anyone laugh, feel comfortable or dance unashamedly make me LOVE HER. She helps me get through things and loves me for what I am :D

LEA :D
I'm sure this has been one of my zaniest friendships EVER. I don't think that I really know a wiser, kinder, funnier, less self conscious person my age! Lea provides immaculate support and makes me laugh even when I feel like curling up and dying. :( She understands EVERYTHING that i feel...she is my opinion twin :)

REESE :D
He's my cousin, but long before I even knew that I LOVED HIM SO MUCH! He's the craziest guy, a complete gentleman, willing to try anything, ready to support, hug, tell secrets, share crazy stories, skateboard, watch retarded horror movies, laugh until we're about to puke and help me with anything I need...I know he will always be there :D

LOUIS :D
Just recently we've become good friends...but I know that he has my back and won't judge me :D

AND a VERY special thanks to all of my other friends must also be said here...
Mishka, Hannah, Matthew, Bryce, Morgan, Ireland, Jessica, Aya, Priyanka, Geraldine, Brandon AND all of the other people who support and love me :D

A Lesson Learned

The awkward moment when I realised that I was going to fail my Accounting exam on my backside, I started reading the posters on the walls. Some of which read:

'Its about love.
Its about compassion.
Its about kindness and faith.
It has nothing to do with luck.
You get what you give, so give good <3'

'You will never get old if you carry your childhood with you.'

'The mind is not a vessel to be filled, but a fire to be ignited.'

This sparked various other things to be rolled over in my mind closed to the blank General Ledger account paper in front of me.
Just recently, a boy I loved very much and thought I was completely happy with, told me a big lie. I tried my VERY best to believe him, thinking that what other people were telling me was useless and untrue. Instead, I realised that ignoring my parents and my friends who told me that he was untrustworthy and abusive, I was believing the very person who is now ostracizing me and acting as if I have hurt him, when all I have done is be trusting, loving and affectionate.
I realised that you need to be perfectly happy on your own so that when something happens to you, you love yourself enough not to blame yourself for everything or go on a drastic diet, or dye your hair blue in a last-ditch attempt to be still loved by a selfish person who has respect only for himself.

I also realised that instead of thinking 'Why is this happening to me?!' you should rather ask yourself 'Why am I being sad about this!?' and choose to be happy.
In the days following the fight that we had, I had a foam fight with my brothers, painted my face, playing loud dance music and ran through the rain. I was choosing to be happy. I made myself think of other things, instead of letting poisonousness creep into my brain and depress. This all made sense inside, but the person who I rammed with a shopping trolley while coasting on it at top speed, didn't exactly understand it.

I also learned that talking to people on electronic messaging helps NOTHING. It in fact worsens the problem and messages get mixed-up and mis-interpreted. Rumours spread like wildfire.

I was so thankful for my friends Simone and Ashleigh, who in the last week have taught me that it does not matter what anyone else thinks, but that we will always be there for eachother and people cannot damage us if we choose to think positive and love everything around us :D

love {heart} ^^